Ciao Italia
Hard to believe, but it’s finally time for my last blog. We are getting ready to head out to Rome then it’s off to London & finally home. Home, that’s crazy. I know people say the older you get- the faster time goes…they aren’t lying. This has definitely been the fastest semester of my life. It’s weird because I’ve planned on studying abroad since high school..it took so much effort, time,and planning but then it was over so quick. I have to say- coming to Italy has been one of the best choices I’ve made in my life. That may seem dramatic, but it’s true. I don’t think there’s any other way I could have grown & learned so much about myself and the world without sometimes feeling lonely & submerged in the world. After taking away my family, friends, church, school, comfort zone, car, Dr. Pepper, air conditioner, fast-food, community, cell phone & almost every other thing that I was connected to/relied on- what is left besides me? The subtraction of most things I cherished added to a language and culture barrier created some interesting challenges for us- but it also gave us some great opportunities to be physically, mentally, emotionally & spiritually stretched. We got a few hours on trains yesterday & I came up with the top five things I’ve learned this semester:
1. Self-confidence. I always thought I knew who I was before I came to Italy, but I think I only knew a fraction. Living in Europe has forced me to deal with people I don’t know, handle situations I’ve never seen & navigate through countries I’ve never been to. Not only had we never lived by ourselves- but prior to living abroad we had never cooked, cleaned or paid bills. Much less- we had never tried to do these things without being able to speak the language. Now I can. Before living in Italy learning to travel on trains, planes, taxis, and boats without clear directions of where I wanted to go—all with information that’s in Italian, would have made me nervous. Meeting crazy people, being stared at, hollered at, spit at and grabbed at would have made me uncomfortable. If I had gotten lost in the middle of the German Alps (or anywhere), not known directions or where I was headed- I would have been a nervous wreck. Not anymore. I’ve learned that I can handle any situation, we can figure our way out of any mess & life will still go on. I’ve learned not to panic over the little things- and I can manage the big ones.
2. Jesus is enough. This is the first time in my whole life that my community was completely snatched from under my feet. Thank Jesus I had Toni & Callyn- but, there were still times when we felt completely alone. There were hard days- days I remember thinking “what have I gotten myself into..?” Days when it was pouring, the kitchen was flooded, the electricity was out, we had no phone, nobody knew us here, nobody cared & we realized we weren’t going home for months. Days where it was evident that WE were the foreigners. Days when nobody would smile at us, nobody hugged us, and nobody talked to us. These were days I learned to trust on Jesus. It’s funny how He puts you in situations that seem harder than you can handle- just so He can carry you right to the brim without you crumbling. That was so many times this semester. We learned within the first few weeks that we were “different” because of our faith. We were the weird ones that didn’t drink, didn’t party & didn’t fit in. I realized that I’m so blessed at home to have great friends that lift me up & support me. I also realized that unfortunately, the world is not the same as the bubble we live in- in the middle of the Bible belt. Most importantly- I learned that Jesus loves the person that doesn’t acknowledge me, the man that spit on Toni & the people we normally wouldn’t have thought twice about. I learned that he loves them just as much as me. I learned that Jesus is all I need- when I’m tired, unfaithful, stressed, homesick, sad AND when I’m excited, happy, faithful, serving and steadfast. He is always enough.
3. Loving people. Like I said- living in Italy took away everyone we held so close. We learned within the first 2 weeks that of the 33 people in our program- many were atheist, many didn’t like sorority girls, many seemed like “extreme partiers” to us..and everyone was different. I think I loved this most of all. We were forced to completely rely on 33 people we never would have met in the States. It’s easy when they’re all you have. I learned that I can be good friends with people that aren’t like me & sometimes that’s the best thing to do. I could not be more thankful for the friends I’ve met here. I can’t thank Jesus enough for getting to know their hearts, and LEARNING to love them. Love is a choice- and we chose to love each other. By the end of the semester I felt like I could call every single person in our program if I was in trouble. That’s what we became to each other. Traveling the world, crossing the language barrier & helping each other through the up’s and downs will do that to a friendship. I’m definitely excited to get back to my friends at home- but I’m also excited that I have 33 new friends. Friends that will share precious memories with me that outsiders may never understand.
4. Slow down. It’s like the Italian phrase I wrote about in February- how sweet it is to do nothing. At the beginning- this was one of my least favorite aspects of Italian life. The fact that nothing is convenient, the world stops from 1-4, nothing is open on Sundays & meals take upwards of 3 hours. Funny enough- these are now some of the things I cherish most about Italy. The fact that people get off 3 hours in the middle of the day to spend with family, eat lunch, and live life together is great. Nothing needs to be open on Sundays- people should be able to go to church, and hang out with the people they love. && meals. We’ve learned to embrace starting a meal at 8 and not ending until 10. We’ve learned to slow down, enjoy each other’s company, and truly get to know other people. We’ve learned that a 3 hour conversation over a bottle of wine composes some of our greatest memories. When life is slower- there is more time for the important things—like people. Some of my favorite nights were when 7 of us crammed into a little kitchen, cooked an Italian masterpiece & sat shoulder to shoulder at the kitchen table for hours. Like I’ve said before- life is about sharing time with people, and that is one thing I think Italians have down.
5. Perceptions of the world. Before coming to Italy I don’t think I realized how close minded I was- actually, I know I didn’t. Living here has given me the opportunity to talk to people from 6 different countries, learn their opinions on life, America & what they value. Don’t get me wrong- I love the States..but I’ve learned that we don’t have everything down. There’s nowhere else I’d rather live, but I’ve found out that other people feel the same way about their countries. I’ve discovered that life is often about perception & we are greatly formed by the way we are raised. I learned that just because people do things differently- that doesn’t mean they do it wrong. People may drink, smoke & do things I consider “bad”- but that doesn’t take away from who they are. Once we started to see where people came from and the values that were they were taught, it was much easier to see who they are. It was this way with everyone in our program too- everyone is fighting a battle I know nothing about. && unless I take the time to care, some people fight it alone- and that is not right. People are not defined by what they do…but who they are.
-So, here I am. Sitting at my kitchen table, watching the minutes tick & anticipating going home. People keep asking if we’re ready. Yes & no. No, I’m not ready to leave the fairytale we’ve been living. I’m not ready to stop traveling. I’m not ready to go back to the real world, stress & chaos of life. But yes, I’m so excited to see the people I love the most. I can’t wait to give my family a hug. I’m excited to spend time with my friends & throw a ball with Moose. It’s funny- I could care less that I haven’t driven car in 4 months or that I can have steak soon. I don’t care about watching TV or going to Wal-Mart. The things I’m most excited for are seeing people that I love. There’s so much more to say, but time is becoming precious. Thank you to everyone who read this- thank you for caring about me and my life enough to keep up with me. Thank you for those of you that took effort into keeping us update on YOUR life. Thank you Mom & Dad for making sacrifices to let me come have the greatest/ most trying 4 months of my life. Thank you for loving me enough to let me be scared, alone & stressed- and thank you for allowing me to figure it all out on my own. I will definitely appreciate being home and having everyone a phone call away. Callyn & Toni. The 2 best friends anyone could ever ask for. Thank you for going on the best/biggest/craziest adventure with me. There truly are no words. Thanks for being my family, my friends, my support, my community & my joy. Thanks for everything; I love you guys more than you know. && thank you JESUS! Thank you for the best semester of all time. This time tomorrow we’ll be on a plane headed home…ciao for now!




